In all honesty...

Growing up...

Seems as if you're walking along and then all of a sudden you're stacked with different choices. Not just you though, but all your peers as well. This is basically the point where you stare up at the sky and just wonder "What's going on?"

It seems like a mess, check this, you splatter paint onto the wall and all you see is arms branching out and total chaos in every direction. Is this the point we've reached? It seems as though everyone around me is making more and more different decisions and at the point where a path ends two more paths begin. Some of us don't walk together anymore, we've chosen our ways and now it's time to walk our paths.

It's a condescending feeling really, thinking about it you really don't know who's still going to be around in a years time. On the contrary, you don't know who's going to be with you in a year's time. Really seperate paths in opposite directions only make the distance greater.

But honestly, I have trouble letting go sometimes. When I think about it, I always enjoyed keeping the best memories closest to heart. Friends may come and go, but at least the memories you share will be there forever. Ties are so hard to break sometimes, just because, none of the pieces fit anymore. Catch my drift? Just the dominant thought of changes and then seperate paths it just gets to a point where it seems like it's just not worth holding onto anymore. Or fighting to keep in touch making sure that "best friends forever" really means best friends forever. (as corny as that sounds)

I really don't want to let go, honestly. But I don't want these types of things to bother me anymore. It's holding me back, just the thought of it.

No more holding on. No more fighting.

Just progress... please.

Okay...

Dear Whoevercomes Alongandreadsthis,

I've come along way since... just since. After transferring you realize the different attitudes each campus contains and even though you never hear me say it. I do miss Essex County College, however to stay in such a hole would only get me nowhere. Compared to Rutgers Newark though, sometimes I'd appriciate it if my fellow student, gracing the seat next to me, would kindly pay attention instead of play on bodog.com. Though, having the name of Rutgers attached to my degree would get me almost anywhere.

The attitude is different over here, back in Essex (after a certain date) everyone was attentive, everyone wanted to learn, and everyone took EVERY class in it's highest priority. (even when it's not focused on their major.) When you were put into a group, everyone contacted each other and did their work. Over here on the Rutgers end, no one seems to be interested in getting the project done ahead of time. It almost feels like I have to coerce them to do their work.

Work ethic is obviously something I took for granted while I at Essex. I can't emphasize how important it is, and even more so to be surrounded by students or peers with the same type of mindset.

Eh....