So the tables have turned...
I'm in a position I haven't seen in awhile. I'm back to being the absolute slacker that I was back awhile back. I've been failing quiz after quiz and it sucks. It hasn't hit me yet, but it needs to hit me soon and hard. So hard that I bleed, that I submit, and I cry. It is there I should stay crying until forever says to stop.
That's how it should be.
That's where I should be.
So that I'm just laying there, staring up.
It's Lent, and what did Jesus do? He spent 40 days in the desert. It's hot, unforgiving, dry. No man can keep his sanity and even on top of that...the ever present evil was whispering into his ear the whole time. The situation almost felt hopeless but perseverance always endured.
I need to do better, WE need to do better. Yes the desert is hot, and yes it's dry. But it's only in the desert that the skies are clearest. Sometimes it feels like, you need to be broken down. To truly realize what you're looking for.
and that's what I need. I found my desert, I found my clear skies. I just need to move, persevere, and endure.
Oh...
I can do this...
I can do this..
BECAUSE I LIKE TO THINK I'M UNTOUCHABLE.
and I am...as long as God is the reason and center for all my endeavors.
Go get'em kid. raawwr!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
do it yo. git that.
ReplyDeleteits 430am. WTHECKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
my lenten sacrifice might require the help of tylenol pm. =\
I agree with you when you say that everyone around us is what makes us. Human beings are such dependent creatures--so much of our being is contingent on whom we laugh with, cry, and sleep next to. I recently just lost a friend myself and it kills me everyday to not be able to see or even talk to her. And though I've access to caring family and friends, I have trouble waking up every morning because a part of me still belongs to her.
ReplyDelete"i guess it's just a matter of where you're priorities lie.. and do we prioritize the wrong things? yes. but are we wrong in prioritizing the things we want? no..."
That's just natural human error--attempting to predict your own happiness rather than simply reaching for it. You can feel sad about the frailty of our existence but why disenfranchise yourself? Your happiness has value, too. So celebrate. Lol.
Thanks for the comment.
ReplyDelete