Perseverance and Endurance

Hillsong United - Never Let Me Go
I always used to listen to this song in the library while I was studying inbetween classes. One of the rare times I was able to feel at peace.

I strayed away on purpose. I strayed away because I'm dying to know how far I can take everything I've learned and everything I've had with me. I wanted to know how much endurance I have. How strong my heart is and how long I can keep it close, no matter how far I get. I feel so distant now. What used to feel like a very close presence and warmth, now feels like a distant stretch. I feel cold most of the time and I don't feel that close anymore. Maybe I've strayed too far? Or maybe I've just gotten so far, the feeling of doubt and dispair are starting to become stronger?

But I've already gotten this far, I can keep going. There is nothing I can't handle as long as I keep God with me. I did say I wanted to see how far I could get.

I feel so alone though. I've ended up in a place where I'm not surrounded by the people who know just about everything I know or seen everything I've seen. I stick out and I feel out of place. I just want to know, if I can survive. Maybe even show others some of the things I've witnessed...maybe. I hope I do okay, I pray I get through this. I pray that I find my place outside of the world I know. And hopefully someday, I'll be able to find comfort and peace everywhere I go.

As long as I have God with me, I'll be fine.